I think this will only make me more hungry for God, more hungry for my art. and More bold and strange.
God how do I talk to my cousin when she’s so ignorant? How do I tell her to stop her nonsense with her whole attitude act. How do i have a serious conversation with her without her sucking her teeth, making a face and whine? Does she not realize that her actions and moods affect others. When she in a stupid grouchy mood she puts me in that same mood. I try to communicate but she’s so trapped in her world that she doesn’t even realize she’s shutting me out and makes me upset because all I want to do is help. Why doesnt she see it? God give me patient. I want her to be the cute funny girl I know. Not this creature thingy thats grouchy and whiny about every single thing. She needs to grow up because on earth in society no one would put up with her stupidity. I love her so much so I put up with it, I’m use to it. She’s my blood she my little sister. But I can’t take this mood fits, mood swings. If I correct her in any little thing she gets up set with me so fast and it’s ugly. If only people know how she really was then she would see how she really acts and feel the need to mind her surrounds and act like a person not a creature of grouchy-ness.
God I ask that you help me through this, give me patients with her, give me word to tell her. Help me, help her to understand.